Lotus-Stopala mog Gospoda, 2

 

      Odabrane poeme iz knjige "Lotus-Stopala mog Gospoda naspram mog srca posvećenosti" (My Lord's Lotus-Feet Versus My Devotion-Heart), 2. deo : 

 

Lotus-Stopala mog Gospoda naspram mog srca posvećenosti, drugi deo, naslovna strana (1998.).

 

 

 

3.

 

My Lord,

What is more important -

For You to tell the world

That I belong to You,

Or for me to tell the world

That You belong to me?

 

"My child,

Let us broadcast

Simultaneously."

 

 

 

3.

 

Moj Gospode,

Šta je važnije -

Da Ti saopštiš svetu

Da ja pripadam Tebi,

Ili da ja saopštim svetu

Da Ti pripadaš meni?

 

Dete Moje,

Hajde da objavimo

Istovremeno."

 

 

 

 

 

5.

 

My Lord,

Please bless me

With that kind of love for You

That will pass the examination

                Of Time.

 

 

5.

 

Moj Gospode,

Molim Te blagoslovi me

Takvom vrstom ljubavi prema Tebi

Koja će položiti ispit

                Vremena.

 

 

 

 

6.

 

My Lord,

Please tell me frankly

If I am ready for a divine life.

 

"My child,

Right now if I answer

                The question,

I shall say without a shadow

                Of doubt

That you are ready.

 

But if I have to answer

                The question

At another time,

Then I may have

A different opinion."

 

Why, my Lord?

 

"My child,

The time that elapses

May drag you down

And you may not then be ready

                For the spiritual life."

 

 

6.

 

Moj Gospode,

Molim Te reci mi iskreno

Jesam li ja spreman za božanski život?

 

"Dete Moje,

U ovom trenutku ako odgovorim

                Na to pitanje,

Reći ću bez senke

                Sumnje

Da si spreman.

 

Ali ako budem morao da odgovorim

                Na to pitanje

Kasnije,

Onda ću možda imati

Drugačije mišljenje."

 

Zašto, moj Gospode?

 

"Dete Moje,

Vreme koje protiče

Može te povući na dole

I tad možda nećeš biti spreman

                Za duhovni život."

 

 

 

 

 

9.

 

My Lord,

You do not sleep.

You meditate and meditate;

You work and work.

I am Your child.

Will I ever be

As great and as good

                As You are?

 

"My child,

I never thought that you could be

                Such a fool!

How can there be any difference

Between Father and child?

Is the child not the creation

                Of the Father?

I am conscious of what I have

                And what I am.

Unfortunately, you are not.

This is the difference

That forces you to swim

In the seas of inequality

                And unworthiness."

 

 

9.

 

Moj Gospode,

Ti ne spavaš.

Ti meditiraš i meditiraš;

Ti radiš i radiš.

Ja sam Tvoje dete.

Hoću li ja ikad biti

Tako velik i tako dobar

                Kao što si Ti?

 

"Dete Moje,

Nisam mislio da možeš da budeš

                Takva luda!

Kako može biti ikakve razlike

Izmedju Oca i deteta?

Zar nije dete delo

                Očevo?

Ja sam svesan onog što imam

                I onog što jesam.

Na nesreću, ti nisi.

To je razlika

Koja te primorava da plivaš

U morima nejednakosti

                I bezvrednosti."

 

 

 

 

 

12.

 

My Lord,

Every year my earthly years

                Advance,

And I lose something precious

From my childlike heart.

Is it because of the advancement

Of the years that I am losing

                My divine qualities?

 

"No, My child,

It is not exactly so.

Your passing years have nothing

                To do with it.

But every year, unfortunately,

You are over-feeding your mind.

Therefore, the tragedy continues."

 

 

12.

 

Moj Gospode,

Svake godine broj mojih godina na zemlji

                Uvećava se,

I ja gubim nešto dragoceno

Iz mog dečjeg srca.

Da li ja to zbog uvećanja

Broja godina gubim

                Moje božanske osobine?

 

"Ne, dete moje,

To nije baš tako.

Tvoje godine koje prolaze nemaju ništa

                Sa tim.

Ali svake godine, na žalost,

Ti previše hraniš svoj um.

Zbog toga se tragedija nastavlja.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

16.

 

My Lord,

I have started making

My gratitude-list.

                But it never ends.

 

"My child,

So much the better

                For both of us."

 

 

16.

 

Moj Gospode,

Počeo sam da pišem

Svoju listu zahvalnosti.

                Ali ona se nikako ne završava.

 

"Dete Moje,

Tim bolje

                Za nas obojicu."

 

 

 

 

 

 

17.

 

My Lord,

Please tell me one thing:

Do You want me to realise You,

Or do You want me to please You?

 

"My child,

Where is the difference?"

 

 

 

17.

 

Moj Gospode,

Molim Te reci mi jedno:

Da li želiš da Te spoznam,

Ili želiš da Ti ugodim?

 

"Dete Moje,

U čemu je razlika?"

 

 

 

 

18.

 

My Lord,

I want to end my earth-journey.

 

"My child,

I have given you freedom

In many aspects of your life,

                But not here."

 

 

18.

 

Moj Gospode,

Želim da okončam moje zemaljsko putovanje.

 

"Dete Moje,

Dao sam ti slobodu

U mnogim aspektima tvog života,

                Ali ne u ovom."

 

 

 

 

 

20.

 

My Lord,

I was born to be

A choice instrument of Yours.

 

"My child,

Unlike you, I never forget."

 

 

20.

 

Moj Gospode,

Ja sam rodjen da budem

Tvoj odabrani instrument.

 

"Dete Moje,

Za razliku od tebe, Ja nikad ne zaboravljam."

 

 

 

 

 

22.

 

My Lord,

I am giving up everything

Until I find You.

 

"My child,

Instead of giving up everything,

Try to find Me in everything.

That is the real way,

                The only way

That will make Me happy

And will make you happy as well."

 

 

22.

 

Moj Gospode,

Dižem ruke od svega

Sve dok Te ne pronadjem.

 

"Dete Moje,

Umesto da digneš ruke od svega,

Pokušaj da Me pronadješ u svemu.

To je pravi način,

                Jedini način

Koji će Mene učiniti srećnim

I tebe učiniti srećnim takodje. "

 

 

 

 

 

 

23.

 

My Lord,

If I give You

My unconditional surrender,

I am afraid You will misuse it.

 

"My child,

Just give Me

Your unconditional surrender first.

                If I misuse it,

You are at perfect liberty

To withdraw it."

 

 

23.

 

Moj Gospode,

Ako Ti dam

Svoju bezuslovnu predanost,

Bojim se, Ti ćeš je zloupotrebiti.

 

"Dete Moje,

Samo ti Meni daj

Tvoju bezuslovnu predanost.

                Ako je zloupotrebim,

Imaš savršenu slobodu

Da je uzmeš nazad."

 

 

 

 

 

24.

 

My Lord,

I am begging You

To keep me with You all the time

And not to allow me to go away.

 

"My child,

I have the same prayer."

 

 

24.

 

Moj Gospode,

Preklinjem Te

Da me zadržiš uz Sebe sve vreme

I da mi ne dozvoliš da odem.

 

"Dete Moje,

Ja imam istu molitvu."

 

 

 

 

 

 

27.

 

My Lord,

When I was young,

You told me that I was too young

To accept the spiritual life.

And now that I am old, too old,

You are telling me

That I am not meant

For the spiritual life.

Why did You not tell me this

When I was still an adult

With my whole life ahead of me?

 

"My child,

Allow Me to explain.

You were meant

                For the spiritual life,

But you were not ready,

You are not ready

And you will never be ready

                For the spiritual life

Until you feel that the spiritual life

                Is the only life,

And there is no other life for you."

 

 

27.

 

Moj Gospode,

Kad sam bio mlad

Ti si mi rekao da sam suviše mlad

Da prihvatim duhovni život.

A sad kada sam star, prestar,

Ti mi kažeš

Da duhovni život

Nije za mene.

Zašto mi to nisi rekao

Kada sam bio još mlad

I imao celi život pred sobom?

 

"Dete Moje,

Dozvoli Mi da objasnim.

Duhovni život

                Je bio za tebe,

Ali ti nisi bio spreman,

Sad nisi spreman

I nikad nećeš biti spreman

                Za duhovni život

Dok ne osetiš da je duhovni život

                Jedini život

I da za tebe ne postoji drugi život."

 

 

 

 

 

32.

 

My Lord,

Why are You not making my life

                A bit easier?

 

"My child,

I am asking you

The same question."

 

 

32.

 

Moj Gospode,

Zašto mi malo

                Ne olakšaš život?

 

"Dete Moje,

I Ja tebe pitam

Isto pitanje."

 

 

 

 

 

35.

 

My Lord,

Do You not feel sorry that

Instead of our being

                At Your Mercy

You are at our mercy?

 

"No, My child.

When I am at your mercy,

I try to add more Compassion

To My infinite Compassion

And more Forgiveness

To My infinite Forgiveness.

                Unconsciously,

You are giving Me an opportunity

                To sing the song

Of My ever-transcending Beyond."

 

 

35.

 

Moj Gospode,

Zar ti nije žao

Što Si Ti nama na milost i nemilost

Umesto da mi budemo

                Tebi na milost i nemilost?

 

"Ne, dete moje.

Kad sam Ja vama na milost i nemilost,

Ja pokušavam da dodam još više Samilosti

Mojoj beskrajnoj Samilosti

I više Praštanja

Mom beskrajnom Praštanju.

                Nesvesno,

Vi Mi pružate priliku

                Da pevam pesmu

Mog večno prevazilazećeg Onostranog."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

36.

 

My Lord,

What are You doing

                Inside my mind?

Do You not know that my mind

                Does not care for You?

 

"My child,

I know, I know.

I am just paying a visit,

                In case your mind

Wants to change its mind."

 

 

36.

 

Moj Gospode,

Šta radiš

                U mom umu?

Zar ne znaš da moj um

                Ne mari za Tebe?

 

"Dete Moje,

Znam, znam.

Samo sam svratio

                Za slučaj da tvoj um

Želi da se predomisli."

 

 

 

 

 

 

38.

 

My Lord,

You do not come to me.

Is it because

My heart is too insignificant,

My mind is too impure,

My life is too imperfect?

 

"No, My child,

Not for that, no.

I do not come to you

Because your love for Me

                Is still too shallow."

 

 

38.

 

Moj Gospode,

Ti mi ne dolaziš.

Je li to zato što je

Moje srce suviše beznačajno,

Moj um suviše nečist,

Moj život suviše nesavršen?

 

"Ne, dete Moje,

Nije zbog toga, ne.

Ne dolazim ti

Zato što tvoja ljubav prema Meni

                Još uvek nije dovoljno duboka."

 

 

 

 

 

 

40.

 

My Lord, I am fully awake.

Cheerfully and self-givingly

I am at Your Command.

 

"My child,

Are you sure?

I plead with you,

This time do not

Eat your promise

Like previous times."

 

 

40.

 

Moj Gospode,

Potpuno sam budan.

Radosno i samopredano

Očekujem Tvoju Komandu.

 

"Dete Moje,

Jesi li siguran?

Preklinjem te,

Ovog puta nemoj

Da progutaš svoje obećanje

Kao ranije."

 

 

 

 

 

 

41.

 

My Lord,

Each time I come near You,

You just run away.

Why, why, my Lord?

 

"My child,

Just to increase your heart-hunger

In measureless measure."

 

 

41.

 

Moj Gospode,

Svaki put kad Ti se približim,

Ti odmah pobegneš.

Zašto, zašto, moj Gospode?

 

"Dete Moje,

Samo zato da uvećam glad tvog srca

U neizmernoj meri."

 

 

 

 

 

 

44.

 

My Lord,

I do not know how I dare

To show my face to You,

Since I displease You

                In so many ways.

 

"My child,

How do I show My Face to you

                Without fulfilling

So many desires of yours?

Even if we do not please

                Each other,

Let us continue showing our faces."

 

 

44.

 

Moj Gospode,

Ne znam kako se usudjujem

Da Ti izađem na Oči

Kad Te razočaravam

                Na toliko mnogo načina.

 

"Dete Moje,

A kako Ja tebi izlazim na oči

                Ne ispunjavajući

Tako mnogo tvojih želja?

Čak i ako ne ugađamo

                Jedan drugom,

Hajde da nastavimo da se vidjamo."

 

 

 

 

 

 

46.

 

My Lord,

I know world-criticism is bad.

How can self-criticism also be bad?

 

"My child,

Both are unmistakably

                And equally bad.

Your world-criticism

Lengthens the pride

Of your stupidity-flooded mind.

Your self-criticism

Indefinitely delays

My divine manifestation

In and through you."

 

 

46.

 

Moj Gospode,

Znam da je kritičnost prema svetu loša.

Ali kako može samokritičnost takodje biti loša?

 

"Dete Moje,

Obe su nepogrešivo

                I jednako loše.

Tvoja kritika sveta

Povećava ponos

Tvog uma preplavljenog glupošću.

Tvoja samokritika

Beskrajno odlaže

Moje božansko ispoljavanje

U tebi i kroz tebe."

 

 

 

 

 

 

51.

 

My Lord,

Will my life's service-tree

                Be able to inspire

One hundred seekers?

 

"My child,

Only one hundred?

What a shock!

What an insult to your soul

                And to Me!"

 

 

51.

 

Moj Gospode,

Hoće li drvo služenja mog života

                Moći da inspiriše

Stotinu tragalaca?

 

"Dete Moje,

Samo stotinu?

Kakav šok!

Kakva uvreda za tvoju dušu

                I Mene!"

 

 

 

 

52.

 

My Lord,

Do You think I shall ever be able

To realise You in this lifetime?

 

"Yes, My child, yes.

No, My child, no."

 

What do You mean, my Lord,

                'Yes and no'?

Please be explicit.

 

"Yes, when you are faith-nectar.

No, when you are doubt-poison."

 

 

52.

 

Moj Gospode,

Da li misliš da ima šanse

Da Te spoznam u ovom životu?

 

"Da, dete Moje, da.

Ne, dete Moje, ne."

 

Kako to misliš, moj Gospode,

                'Da i ne'?

Molim te, budi određeniji.

 

"Da, kad si nektar vere.

Ne, kad si otrov sumnje."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Prevod: Dejan Maksimović